"Ours"

Elevator buttons and morning air
Strangers' silence makes me want to take the stairs
If you were here we'd laugh about their vacant stares
But right now my time is theirs

Seems like there's always someone who disapproves
They'll judge it like they know about me and you
And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury's out, my choice is you

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water's rough
But this love is ours

You never know what people have up their sleeves
Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me
Lurking in the shadows with their lip gloss smiles
But I don't care 'cause right now you're mine

And you'll say
Don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water's rough
But this love is ours

And it's not theirs to speculate
If it's wrong and
Your hands are tough
But they are where mine belong and
I'll fight their doubt and give you faith
With this song for you

'Cause I love the gap between your teeth
And I love the riddles that you speak
And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos will be ignored
'Cause my heart is yours

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
Don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
But they can't take what's ours
They can't take what's ours

The stakes are high, the water's rough
But this love is ours

This Love Is Ours

Eventful..

It has been a rather... eventful week.

On Wednesday, Mom started to clean out the attic. This resulted in lots of laughs from old keepsakes. It’s crazy all the things she kept. I wish I had thought to keep some out to upload, but I didn’t. We found so many old things, from school papers, to my favorite outfits. We even found a paper from Pre-K that said “I stepped on a peanut” It’s crazy to think I have always been so random. It was fun going through it all, but when it turned into a weekend project it got boring quickly. All of her cleaning made me want to clean out my room. I threw a lot away (if you know me that’s a big deal) I’ll add pictures of my clean room later(:

Oh and I have a confession…

The cat’s officially out of the bag… I have a boyfriend. And before anyone blows up my phone, Twitter, or Facebook. Let me just say, this news did not come out the way I wanted to at all. If you’re a teenager you understand timing is everything when telling your parents stuff… well, timing wasn’t on my side. Mom took my phone and found my texts, oops. Surprisingly she wasn’t mad, but she was upset that I didn’t tell her. I pretty much knew I was screwed when she took my phone and asked for my password, I instantly began to tremble. My breathing speed up quickly and I got very light headed and sick to my stomach. I began to sweat, even though my body was freezing. The only thing I could do was lay on the floor in the fetal possession. I eventually made it downstairs to attempt to start school, still shaking I managed to get on webmd.com and I realized I had had my first panic attack. It was super scary. As I was reading about them mom came in the room and began talking to me. I didn’t want to tell her right away until I was positive so about 30 min later when she stopped talking I laid my head down. An hour later I woke up to her telling me to start school. I was shocked she let me sleep that long. But I needed it, I woke up feeling much better and explained everything to her. Moral of the story TALK TO YOUR PARENTS! Lol.

Yeah, that’s all I can think of off the top of my head. Write again soon.

On this day

Exciting news!!
On this day in exactly a month I will be 18!! WOOT
And a year ago yesterday I was at the Justin Bieber concert! Time flies..

Sol what's new, hmm
Well today I got a relationship accountability partner, his name is Mack, I picked Mack cause he's like my only good Christian guy friend. I decide it would be best to have a guy friend be my accountability partner, because guys can read other guys better, and because guys aren't afraid of you getting mad at them. Plus I can't get mad at Mack this kid is the bomb! Yup yup that's about it for now, I gotta finish cleaning D:

Catching Up

I haven't written in forever. I would like to say that I've been busy, but really I'm just slacking.

But I plan on picking up where I left off, well the best I can. As you know alot has happened in my life in the past 6 months.

For starters, Brennen and I broke up, I prefer not to go into details so we'll just say we couldn't find a common ground on a few things, that was back in May, the 2nd to be exact. But before that my old youth pastor and his wife left our church, and needed a place to live, so they stayed with us for a few months. It was pretty cool, it was weird at first but then it just became the norm to come downstairs and see Jeffy (Jeff) in my kitchen. I really liked having another girl around. Sarah and I got to hang out when she wasn’t busy or at work.

In June I spent a week in South Carolina with my cousins, I flew there and back by myself, it wasn’t the best flight but it could have been worse, I mean the plane could have crashed and I could have died. So I’ll take creepy old guys dissing on my Bush t

o a plane crash any day. It was right after I got back that Brennen and I broke up, that has been rough, but I’m taking it a day at a time. For awhile I seemed to have gone off the deep end, I fell back into my old ways, talking back to my parents, giving them attitude, cursing to myself and my friends. Lying about where I was specifically. Never getting into real trouble but that’s beside the point. I recently straightened back up, I still slip up every now and then, but I catch myself. I started running, it’s weird cause I hate running but for some reason it feels good to just hit the streets and run.

Over the summer I made some new guy friends, Nick and Dakota. I describe Nick as the perverted funny one, and Dakota as the charming retard who’s always hopelessly in love with someone. Of course adding 2 boys to our circle of girls hasn’t been easy, rather than ‘so-n-so was talking about so-n-so’ it’s become ‘so-n-so was flirting with Dakota’ this has been interesting and annoying at the same time. (Pictured on the left, Bekah, Sasja, Dakota, Lauren, Me) We also got a pool, which currently is covered due to the colder weather. I am going to be an AUNT! To a baby boy! My sister Amber is pregnant with a boy! He doesn’t have a name yet, we just call him Bubbles. He is due sometime in December.

In July I went to Wimberly, TX with my neighbor Ms. Sheri, her daughter Kara and her family, we brought my friend Lauren too. The house we stayed in was super pretty! It was right on the river which all the kids were in pretty much all day every day. It had a rope swing were we all officially mastered the art of swing the rope hard enough so the next person in line could catch it. While we were there we rode zip lines, which was pretty scary because you had to learn how to stop yourself! The course had eight separate zip lines. Each line ranges in length from 150 feet to about 900 feet. The zip lines were between two hillsides above a valley at a maximum height of over 100 feet and you went down them at up to over 30 mph. It was pretty intense. Lauren On The Zip Line >

In August I went to Kemah Boardwalk, where I rode 2 rollercoaster’s! If you know me that’s a big deal! Considering the simple fact I HATE heights and rides, the two biggest ones I rode were Pharaoh's Fury and Drop Zone, the scariest was the drop zone, if you have ever been to Astro World, this ride is similar and often confused with Dungeon Drop. Pretty much you go up about 140 ft in the air (That’s about 14 stories high!) then you drop. SCARY!

Nothing really interesting happened in September.

In October we got another dog Sammie, she's 70 lbs of crazy lab. She loves to drool all over me, it's super gross! But she's a cuddle bug!

So yea I think we’re pretty much up to date! Yesterday Mom and Dad surprised me with a guitar! It’s a YAMAHA, it was my dad’s stepdads or something. It’s just temporary, to prove I’m serious about learning. It takes a lot of dedication for something like this, but I’m up for it. I can’t say the same about my poor fingers; they are torn up from the strings. But the pain will so be worth it when I can play full songs rather than the 2 chords I know. Hopefully soon I can post a video of me actually playing something. Until then I better practice. Later guys!